3 inch ruminations
It's still fucking snowing. I think I might be in Hell - didn't know there'd be snow. If i knew that, i think I would have tried harder to get into heaven. Computer is down, so I'm on the iPhone typing this, so A) I'm REALLY bored and B) I want to write really bad to submit myself to this one finger typing torture.
Gonna get the fucking computer fix. That's pretty much it. Beg, borrow, steal, I'm getting it fixed. Fuck my whining.
Darryl's a great guy. The best guy I've ever dated, equal to Ken, I think. But it didn't work out. And the big difference between him and BatShitCrazy, besides the thousand points i could highlight, is that I will always love him and am in awe of what kind of man he is compared to most. Except for his endgame, there was nothing bad about him. I guess he decided my puzzle piece didn't quite fit as well as he thought. I thought it was, but I have pretty bad judgment. Also, I'm not that interested in changing majorly for someone else. I'm caustic and sarcastic, and have my own flaws that i work on - but I'm actually quite fabulous. I was meant for someone brave.
Life is actually going very well. And it will soon be warm. I'm lucky for what I have and for those who love me, especially the ones who in essence have never met me. Amazing individuals who give more than I deserve.
I really have to try and keep my attitude. I'm almost thinking that I need to back off of this place. I need to have looser ties and a broader horizon. Sometimes being too attached can sink you with whatever anchor is dragging you down.
Posted on Jan 30, 2010 | 5:52 pm
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