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3 MILES

18 March 2018, 12:39

Holy shit. That was the fastest 3 miles I have done in 8 years. I have pushed past the plateau and my weight is starting to drop again – 2 pounds this week. I laid on the porch in the sun for about half and hour just being… HAPPY. I wasn’t thinking of anything, I was just feeling sunshine on my face, and listening to the music in my ears. I am no longer listening to the playlists that I made during the last three months. I“m back to the normal music I listen to. And listening to podcasts, again. I’m even back to watching X-files reruns. This is a sign, in itself, that I’m gaining a bit of me back again.

Today was an awesome day, and I think the weather has a lot to do with it. The running quiets the clickity clack in my head and gives me a boost of endorphins and I’m able to experience contentment and happy for a little while. It’s going to be nice and nicer and nicest from here on out, so I can only get better and better.

Friday was a REALLY bad day. It’s started out lovely, and spending the evening playing pool at Charlie’s was good. I finally got a groove where I don’t over drink, and over spend and over annoy. Then, for some reason, on the way home, I stopped off at another bar (mistake) drank a bit more, and then headed out. BAD. I headed out, got lost, didn’t realize it for a LONG while and ended up abotu 15 miles from the coast – I am NOT lying. I spend the better part of the night googling and driving back home. Thankfully, nothing bad happened to me, except for a little life lesson and a giant hangover. I’ve done stupid things in the past, this was a WAY stupid thing to do, and it will be the last stupid thing I do for a while I hope. But, it caused today, and today was AWESOME.

The sunshine is such a tonic. The running is such a tonic. If there was a patio, nachos and beer, I’d be all set for a lovely afternoon. But, in lieu of all that, I’m cleaning. The house is open to where the breeze and the sun comes in. X-files is playing on the living room computer (yeah, I just about have a computer in every room). My mind is not filled with bric-a-brac right now. I’m not sure how long that will last, but, it is a nice feeling. I wonder if this is what being single is going to feel like? If it is, I’m a down with that.