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13 October 2017, 08:01

Things I learned from my ex:

  • I’ve learned to hide all of the below really well.
  • I can’t trust anyone.
  • No one who says they love me can possibly be telling the truth, or there is something really wrong with them.
  • I’m not pretty.
  • I can’t count on anyone. No one but me is there for me.
  • I don’t have anything of value to offer anyone.
  • Happy is fleeting and never real.
  • I am not real capable of a lot of things.
  • There’s so much I’m not, that I need to be. I feel so inadequate for the tasks set for me.
Things I’m having trouble with now because of the ex:
  • I can’t connect really well with people now. I always think I’m a burden or a bother.
  • I have trouble determining whether my suspicion and “red flag” radar is detecting a real red flag or am I just bristling and panicking because of something normal.
  • I am always sad now. I hide it well. But now, I am on the verge of tears most of the time.
  • I feel useless and feel like I’m failing ALL THE TIME now.
  • I feel so alone, and scared to death of getting close to anyone.
  • I feel bad for feeling what I’m feeling and can’t distinguish things I’m allow to feel and things that are just self pity.
  • I am really scared all the time now.
  • I am just barely keeping things together, and I feel like that I’m always on the verge of losing control of things.